What Is It?

It’s driving me crazy

Something rip off my sanity

What is it actually?

It’s insane

But nothing to blame

Something disguistingly sweet fill me

Something out of rationality

What is it? What is it? Come and tell me.

I cant take it anymore

Everytime you hit my mind

My heart just beating out of line

Is it the L-thing ?

Come and tell me everything

Walk toward me and sing it, darling

Need to know how you feel

Do you feel the way i feel?

I know your heart is sealed

But I need to be healed

Love, love, love is something I need to feel.

Bitch in Uniform

Hey there, fella. It's been awhile since the last post. Ive been extremely busy with my school or to be spesific is im on my preparation for the national exam. Creepy, isn't it?
Pft..then let me forget about that for awhile. I have soooo many things to write but im stuck with where do i have to start with first?

Maybe the break-up-thing is the best choice.

I know it's kinda late to write about but it was pretty waste of energy. Now my (ex)best friend snatched my ex-boyfriend. The shameless girl has become the new backstabber of my story.

I really dont mind about they got together but something bothers me; the promise which she said to me was meaningless. It was nothing but crap. She said she didnt like him as a potential boyfriend, she was just best friends with him but you know almost every twat tells a lie.

I wrote rhynes for her, angry rhymes actually. Please enjoy B)

We used to be happy

While we sing it loudly

We used to be together

But you are the liar

We are still friends, aren’t we?

NO

You used to be my friend

But you stab me from behind

All the promises

I won’t keep anymore

Because you've made your self look like a whore

You are not who you are

You forgotten what we are

You are the bitch in uniform

In unusual kind of form

I wont come back

Because nothing left but crack

F-word for you baby

Don’t worry I will forgive you, sweety

But you must die in front of me

Now how is that, honey?

Last Kiss

Just Fyi, ive nevere kissed a guy before but this song fits on me.

I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go... away.

I do recall now the smell of the rain,
Fresh on the pavement,
I ran off the plane,
That July night, the beat of your heart,
It jumps through your shirt I can still feel your arms.

But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes,
All that I know is I don't know,
How to be something you miss.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in.
I'm not much for dancing,
But for you I did because
I loved your handshake meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something.
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions and

I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes,
All that I know is I don't know, how to be something you miss.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name forever the name on my lips
Ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep and
I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe and
I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are.
Hope it's nice where you are and
I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day and
Something reminds you,
You wish you had stayed we can plan for a change in weather and time,
I never planned on you changing your mind.

So,
I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes,
All that I know is I don't know, how to be something you miss.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name forever the name on my lips,
Just like our last kiss,
Forever the name on my lips,
Forever the name on my lips.
Just like our last

Last Kiss, Taylor Swift, Speak Now

A boy in my dream

Minggu ini mimpiku di ganggu sama seorang bocah laki-laki yang nggak seharusnya ada di dunia fantasi milik pribadi yaitu mimpi. Pake mimpinya berulang kali pula - -a

In reality I know him just as my friend but I don’t know why he appeared in my dream.

Mimpi ini bisa ngerubah persepsiku tentang bocah itu. Awalnya aku fine-fine aja sama dia—without any crush feeling at all. Tapi mimpi itu ngerubah pandangan plus perasaanku.

BUT !!  after three times Ive dreamed of him, he got closer to me in my dream (kita udah kayak pacaran laa) and I think I have to confess that these dreams have gotten me and changed me. Now from nothing , I feel everything! I have crush on him T.T

Aku tahu seharusnya aku nggak boleh lancing mikirin orang sembarangan sampe kebawa mimpi gitu -,- but I don’t wanna be a damned hypocrite bitch up here. I feel grateful to have him in my universe last night. He was mine and it felt good. Trust me :)

Aku tahu mimpi Cuma bunga tidur yang nggak bakal jadi kenyataan.

Buti..Ive dreamed about something twice and it did come true.

Then what about this dream?

Candaan, perhatian plus keasyikan bocah ini dalam mimpi, apa juga bakal terwujud juga?

Unfortunately, I do really hope so

Im A Big Girl In A Big World

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I can see the first leaf falling 

It's all yellow and nice 

It's so very cold outside 

Like the way I'm feeling inside 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

Outside it's now raining 

And tears are falling from my eyes 

Why did it have to happen 

Why did it all have to end 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire 

But when I open my eyes 

You're gone... 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do do feel that 

I do do will miss you much 

Miss you much... 

I'm a big big girl 

In a big big world 

It's not a big big thing if you leave me 

But I do feel I will miss you much 

Miss you much...

This post I dedicate to all the people or things that have gone left me 

Unspoken Thanks

Indahnya dunia tak diragukan.
Fikir melayang kadang terlewatkan.
Hidup memang tak pernah manis.
Selalu saja tak sejalan tak ayal sadis.
Walau kejam tapi tak akan sirna.
Jika belum waktunya.

Berani sekali bibir ini mengeluh?
Apa aku sudah melakukan semuanya dengan benar?

Coba hitung berapa tawa yang kau perdengarkan pada semesta?
Rekam semua keluh kesah yang kau derita.
Apakah kau sudah mengucap syukur sebelumnya?

Untuk diriku, aku yakin belum pernah.

Tuhan memberiku duka, aku mnegeluh.
Datang tawa, tapi aku acuh.

Apa yang sanggup menyadarkanku?

Jika mulut boleh berkata, mungkin cinta bunda jawab hatiku.
Duka terdalam kehilangan sauh.
Sudah setahun berlalu, namun baru detik ini aku merasa butuh.

Perayaan terlewatkan jauh, namun tetap saja aku jenuh.
Tak ada yang berarti selain cinta ibu.
Rasa terima kasih terbelenggu.
Tak tersampaikan karena cepatnya waktumu berlalu.

Tuhan aku bersyukur Engkau telah membiarkanku melewati cobaan-cobaan berarti.
Merasakan perih yang pasti.
Tersenyum ikhlas karena pada akhirnya aku mengerti
Bahwa setelah rintik hujan akan tampak pelangi.

Dan untuk ibu ku ucap banyak syukur atas kesediaanmu mengandung tubuh mungilku.
Izinkan aku menangis mengenang jasa tak berbalasmu.
Walau dirimu tak hadir lagi, namun hatiku rindu.
Kehampaan yang kau tinggalkan mendesak napas.
Jejak kasih dan senyummu berbekas.
Kasihmu tanpa batas dan ikhlas.
Bait doa serta harap kurangkai untukmu.
Dengan nama seluruh sel penyusun tubuhku,
Ucap terima kasih kupersembahkan.

Common Denominator

Just a fraction of your love fills the air
And I fall in love with you
All over again, oh
You're the light that feeds the sun
In my world
I'd face a thousand years of pain for my girl
Out of all the things in life that i could fear
The only thing that would hurt me, uh
Is if you weren't here, oh

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna go back to just being one half of the equation
Do you understand what I'm sayin'?
Girl, without you I'm lost
Can't fix this compass at heart
Between me and love,
You're the common denominator
Oh, oh , oh, oh
Common denominator
Oh, yeah, whoa

Before your love was low
Playing girls was my high
You changed the game
Now I put my card to the side, ay
When broken hearts rise up to say, "Love is a lie"
You and I would stand to be love's reply, yeah

Out of all things in life that I could fear, yeah
The only thing that would hurt me is if you weren't here, whoa

[Chorus]

I can't imagine life without your touch,
And every kiss that you give,
You fill me up
And through all the heart achin'
Jealous females hatin'

I'm gonna hold it down for you
You, whoa, oh, whoa
You're the common denominator
Oh yeah whoa

I don't wanna to go back...

[Chorus]

Just a fraction of your love fills the air
And I fall in love with you all over again, yeah