Getting Over You (all over again)

This phrase of my life is taking my energy out.
I have to do it all over again.
Once.
Twice
and...
This is the third time Im trying to get over somebody.


Why do I have to do this over and over again ?
Do i have to get over him?
Can I have another chance? (i dont think this one have possibility)


It's been 9 days since we contact each other and ive just decided to end all of this.
I am tired of waiting and the crazy fact about waiting is I have to do it all over again


Do I have to go through this again?
But ive decided to stop waiting and take some times to be alone (sorry but i have to put 'again' ).
And now i dont know how to describe my feeling. I guess i cant feel anything clearly or you can just say I am numb.


I dont know how to fix my self after this disaster.
I have friends but I dont want to disturb their perfect life just to listen my pathetic story of life.
And i dont want to hear their perfect story of life either.
Am I jealous or intimidated?

But please just one question, tell me how to forget him?
Because everything i see and done reminds me of him.
HE IS EVERYWHERE.
I feel like he is haunting me around and not letting me to forget about him.
It's torturing me like HELL !


I need to get over him !
RIGHT AWAY and I need some HELP !